The end

Today is the end of The West Wing.  Since we started it this past summer when we were living in Washington DC it has been a wonderful reminder of that place we live; of getting involved and staying abreast on what is happening in local, state, and national politics; and it has been the topic of many conversations.

And now we're on the last episode of the last season ever.

I never thought this day would come.  Yet now that it's here, it makes me a little happier, because now I can watch it whenever I want and not have to wait for Cody to come home.

In other news: I get to sleep in on Monday. After discussing Martin Luther King Jr and his impact on the world, my students had a writing assignment to describe what their dream is. This is one of my favorites:  "I have a dream that one day my brothers will leave me alone! I cannot get in trouble. I can go everywhere! I will go to the pool, Disneyland, and space! I love space!"

A small Bollywood problem

So I think I have a problem...

During my students' library time today the only thing I wanted to listen to in my room as I got ready for them to return and for French Club after school, was:

And I played it as my French Club students came in. And after French Club as I was cleaning up.

Now I'm listening to:

I hope that Cody and I can get Jodhaa Akbar at some point. I really like this movie. We're also hoping to buy Lagaan sometime, as well.  Cody likes that movie better. It has awesome music too, so I'm fine with it.

Happy Birthday Harry Potter!

In honor of Harry Potter's (and J.K. Rowling's) birthday today:

A lot of thoughts about Jane Eyre

I have spent the last week thinking constantly about Jane Eyre by Charlotte Bronte, since I have reread it for the 8th or 9th time, I believe.  Since I wrote some blog posts on Villette when I read it for the first time three years ago, I thought it was time that I wrote a post about Jane Eyre.

The first time I read this novel I was in eighth grade and thought it one of the most romantic and exemplary books I'd ever read--even more so than Pride and Prejudice that I had read a year earlier.

I bought Jane Eyre on a whim at the school's book fair--it was only five dollars, I liked the cover, it promised romance on the back, and it was fairly thick.  As I began reading I was instantly pulled in by Jane's voice--or Charlotte Bronte's voice, is how I view it now after having read all her works--and by the familiarity of feeling that seemed to swell in me as I read about how she fought her emotions as a child between being good and wanting justice, how she dealt with the loss of a friend, and how even as she worked she yearned to be more a part of the world. Then I met Mr. Rochester. And then I really met Jane.

Mr. Rochester

It seems like Mr. Rochester is an enigma to many men (my husband included) who only see the movies of Jane Eyre.  In the movies he seems to be very changing, sometimes violent, kind of a creeper, mean (trying to force jealousy), a liar, manipulative, and not really in love with Jane--perhaps in infatuation, but not love.  So why on Earth does he seem to be a man of romance to so many women?

The way I tried to explain it to Cody was that just like he and I are perfect matches for each other--based on past experiences, mutual interests, learning from each other, etc.--for the character Jane, Mr. Rochester is her perfect match.  The blossoming of that realization is very apparent in the novel, though I think, harder to show in a movie since most of the realizing happens in Jane's head.  Also, near the end of the book there is a quote that says, "I know what it is to live entirely for and with what I love best on earth...I am my husband's life as fully as he is mine." Even though most of the time, Mr. Rochester seems to be a crantankerous man, he loves Jane and Jane loves him.

I do have my problems with Mr. Rochester's character, but guess what? He isn't my match. He's Jane's, and it's wonderful seeing how they complete each other.  My real problem with Mr. Rochester is how he is portrayed in the movies.  But I'll get to that later.

The Real Jane

What did I mean when I said that during my first reading of Jane Eyre I went through her childhood and early working time and meeting Mr. Rochester, and then that's when I really met Jane? Hadn't I been reading about her for the first 300+ pages?  Why wasn't she real before then?

Well, she was. But she didn't discover her strength, her core, until 300+ pages into it.  Mr. Rochester seems to see it in her before she does (during the gypsy scene, "that brow professes to say--'I can live along, if self-respect and circumstances require me to do so. I need not sell my soul to buy bliss. I have inward treasure born with me, which can keep me alive if all extraneous delights should be withheld, or offered only at a price I cannot afford to give.' The forehead declares, 'Reason sits firm and holds the reins, and she will not let the feelings burst away and hurry her to wild chasms.  The passions may rage furiously, like true heathens, as they are; and the desires may imagine all sorts of vain things: but judgements shall still have the last word in every argument, and the casting vote in every decision. Strong wind, earthquake-shock, and fire may pass by: but I shall follow the guiding of that still small voice which interprets the dictates of conscious.'") Since it was my first reading of the novel, I didn't see this foreshadowing.

It wasn't until the critical moment of the plot, when all is in turmoil, and Jane is in agony and doesn't know what to do, when she thinks, "I care for myself.  The more solitary, the more friendless, the more unsustained I am, the more I will respect myself.  I will keep the law given by God; sanctioned by man.  I will hold to the principles received by me when I was sane, and not mad--as I am now.  Laws and principles are not for the times when there is no temptation: they are for such moments as this, when body and soul rise in mutiny against their rigour; stringent they are; inviolate they shall be.  If at my individual convenience I might break them, what would be their worth? They have a worth--so I have always believed; and if I cannot believe it now, it is because I am insane--quite insane, with my veins running fire, and my heart beating faster than I can count its throbs.  Preconceived opinions, foregone determinations are all I have at this hour to stand by; there I plant my foot."

Oh my heart stopped when I read this! This is what I think and feel! This is how I want to be! my 14-year-old self thought.  I wanted to be strong against temptation. I wanted to know that it was okay to step out of the flow of what is "normal" and "accepted," to stand alone and to be okay with myself for doing that.  If Jane could do it--and by extension, Charlotte Bronte, because I am certain she had to do so as I've studied her life--then I could, too.

I've often thought of this quote as I've gone through hard times, especially a few years ago when I had to make some tough decisions and stick by them.  It was extremely difficult. It wasn't what I had expected. However, though I didn't feel exactly like Jane in that no one was trying to outwardly force me to do the opposite of what I had decided, the other half of my nature was wanting me to do it.  I wanted to do what I had decided I wouldn't do. But I could think about how I knew what I was doing was right and then I would have more strength to do it.  Also, it was just a good quote to keep floating around my head during dating and being engaged--"Laws and principles have a worth! They have a worth!" I would inwardly say to myself when temptation could have arisen. As a result, I never felt like I got close to anything I didn't want to get close to.

Back to the plot: After this point in the novel, we see the foil of the Thornfield Hall episode in the shape of the Rivers' home. I rather like the contrast and have never found this point in the book particularly boring, especially because it shows that Jane can stick by what she said she would do and that she won't give in purely to reason; she still has feelings and knows that she needs to satisfy reason and desires in order to have true happiness.

Needless to say, I love Jane. I love Jane because she grows up in this novel (not like in Pride and Prejudice, which I also love, but Elizabeth is 21 pretty much the entire novel) and you get to see how she changes and figures herself out. I love Jane because she has integrity. I love Jane because she knows how to balance logic and reason, and emotions and feelings.

The Movies

(MASSIVE SPOILER ALERT: I'm not tiptoeing around any plot developments here)

1983 version

Now for my critiques of the movies.  I have seen the 1983, 1995, 2006, and 2011 versions of Jane Eyre.  While I think the chemistry between Jane and Mr. Rochester is best in the 2006 version, I think that Jane's passionate integrity comes out best the 2011 version. I do like that the 1983 version includes more lines from the actual book, and includes a more faithful rendition of Lowood than the other three.  The 1983 version is also the most complete movie (probably because it is a miniseries) in having events that are in the book but that are usually omitted from the other movies (i.e. the gypsy scene, when Jane lost her parcel and went begging, a true rendition of how Jane gets her inheritance, Rosamond Oliver, the several times that St. John proposes, how Rochester ends up at a separate house at the end, and that Rochester's hand was amputated not just that he went blind).  I also think that Jane's character was developed very well in the 1983 version in that she doesn't seem like an abnormally quiet person all the time; she can and does laugh and her bluntness seems more in character in this version.

However, the acting is a little forceful in the first several episodes of the 1983 version, the typhus episode is actually talked about (unlike in the other three) but Helen Burns death and her parting, inspiring, life-changing, faith-building words are not included. The made a few, though not memorable (unless you have just read the book like I have), changes towards the end, but overall, they did a remarkably good job with this version, except for the kid actors in the first couple episodes.

1995 version

The 1995 version completely changes events for the last half of the movie--St. John apparently is Mrs. Reed's parson at Gateshead, the house burns down the moment Jane leaves, since Mr. Eyre "never believed Jane to have died" and still left her his fortune--how on Earth did Mr. Mason find out about the wedding?, when Jane returns it is to Thornfield Hall, not Ferndean Hall. I was just very unimpressed with the ending of this movie (and some events at the beginning at Lowood--Jane's hair did not get cut off, neither does Helen's; Ms Temple is supposed to be the superintendent, not Ms. Miller; and Jane didn't stay on the stool all day, only a half hour).

2006 version

The 2006 version I haven't seen in four years so I can't say much about it except that there is one scene in particular when Jane is leaving Rochester that I think the director wanted to put in a little more firey-ness than actually is found in the book. But whatever, that's his license.  Also, I don't think that Mr. Rochester was ugly enough; he was rather nice looking in this version. Until I saw the 2011 version, this one was my favorite.

2011 version

The 2011 version is one of my favorite versions because it gives more of the full picture, without being a mini-series like the 1983 version.  While Jane's passionate integrity comes out more in this movie, I feel like the build up of her and Rochester's relationship isn't as strong as it is in the book.  I also think Rochester is too handsome in this movie.  Overall, this is my favorite version for a shortened 2 hour movie adaptation.

Tops...

Since watching Jodhaa Akbar for the second time in a week in a half, I thought it was time that I figure out what my top movies are and since I think in terms of genre, here we go (in no particular order):

Foreign Films

Kids/Family Films

"Classics"

Why Foreign Films are Awesome

Lately...for the past five years...I've been on this kick with foreign films.  Don't get me wrong--I love good-ol' contemporary American movies (about superheroes and Disney characters).  However, the past few days I've only watched foreign or classic films and I feel like my "movie-watching experience" has been improved because of it.  My horizons are widened, I'm subjected to more delicate film subtleties (in some cases), and I feel like I'm actually learning something, not just merely being entertained.

Thursday evening I watched Children of Heaven. From imdb: When Ali loses his sister's shoes, the two decide to share his to avoid getting in trouble.

Isn't this the cutest boy in the world?

From this movie I learned the joys and scariness of being a kid again.  I was exposed to the 1997 life in Iran--homes, clothing, schools.  I saw the care that a boy had for his little sister. It was an adorable movie that ends somewhat unsatisfactory because you know there will most likely be closure but the director leaves it up to the viewer. (Note: In Persian, originating from Iran)

Friday night I watched Anna Karenina. From imdb: Stefan and Dolly Oblonsky have had a little spat and Stefan has asked his sister, Anna Karenina, to come down to Moscow to help mend the rift.  Anna's companion on the train from St. Petersburg is Countess Vronsky who is met at the Moscow station by her son. Col. Vronsky looks very dashing in his uniform and it's love at first sight when he looks at Anna and their eyes meet.  Back in St. Petersburg they keep running into each other at parties.  Since she has a husband and a small son, they must be very discreet if they are going to see each other alone.

Rather different than the Kiera Knightly portrayal

Even though I knew what this movie would be like since I read the book in high school, it had been seven years since I read it. I was surprised by some of the turns of events, though the basic premise of a woman deciding she was unhappy in her marriage, abandoning her husband and son to go off with a lover, was known to me.  My biggest problem with this movie (and probably the newer version though I haven't seen it) is that it only focuses on the Anna Karenina part of Tolstoy's novel. I know that's who the book/movie is named after, but Tolstoy is a genius and put a foil in his novel--Kitty and her husband.  There is probably a total of two minutes in this movie that shows how Kitty's life is in complete contrast to Anna's all because of the choices she made.  I do like Vivien Leigh and she did a good job being a sassy, unsatisfied wife and paranoid lover.  I did learn that again, I don't think I would want to live in Russia in the winter. It looks stinkin' cold! (Note: In English, originating from the UK)

Saturday I watched Le Ballon Rouge (The Red Balloon) and Jodhaa Akbar.

From imdb: A red balloon with a life of its own follows a little boy around the streets of Paris.

This boy is delightful! And so is his balloon.

The only word for this 34 minute film is delightful!  The red balloon in the midst of the grays of the area of Paris the boy goes through is beautiful and the boy's relationship with the balloon is so cute. The end also makes me think that that is where the makers of Up! got their idea of traveling by balloon. (Note: What talking there is is in French and it originates from France)


From imdb: A sixteenth century love story about a marriage of alliance that gave birth to true love between a great Mughal emperor, Akbar, and a Rajput princess, Jodhaa.

Emperor Jalal Mohammad and Jodhaa fighting to resolve a dispute 

In this four hour long movie, you are taken through the history of the Mughal (Muslim) take over of Hindustan (India).  There is somewhat gory fighting at the beginning, but the majority involves the political tension that erupts when Emperor Jalal Mohammad married the Rajput princess, Jodhaa.  The Emperor is Muslim and Jodhaa is a Hindu.  Despite his fervor as a Muslim--in fact, only agreeing to marry Jodhaa because he receives an answer from Allah after praying about what to do (should he marry the "infidel" or not?) and feels that Allah wants him to for the benefit of uniting his country--he believes in religious tolerance and acceptance of other religions.  He also went against the stereotype of being a brutal, bloodthirsty ruler; instead he was compassionate, merciful, and forgiving. He made mistakes, but Jodhaa helped him through her blunt simplicity by telling him what he should do to amend his mistakes.

This isn't a typical Bollywood movie. There is a great deal less singing and dancing than in other Bollywood movies I have seen. The singing and dancing that does take place is in ceremonies that would normally take place in the 16th century life.  Also, no swearing or nudity of any kind.  I loved this movie. I wouldn't be surprised if I watch it again soon. (Note: Language is Hindi; originates from India)

Some new likes

In the past few days I've learned about some new likes that I have:


-Pita Pit
-cobbler (I knew I liked this before, but I really love the recipe I have because it makes a nice crispy, buttery, sugary crust and it is delicious!)
-the movie, Sarah's Key, which is actually pretty sad (it's about the Holocaust and other things) but it is really, really good

In other news: I'd really like to get a nice night of sleep. Since Saturday night I've had troubles falling asleep and staying asleep. It's pretty annoying and makes it even harder to get up in the morning. Last night I did put some lavender on my pillow and I think that helped me to relax and fall asleep and then when I woke up at 2 in the morning, I think it helped me fall back asleep easier.